"How do you do all of this", asked me my friend after we had a pretty emotional and stressful day of filming for the Early Late Show.
These words have been replaying in my head. The face she made when she asked it. The confusion that struck me when she said it. The wave of emotions that washed over me as she questioned my ability and my capabilities to do all of "this". In no way was I offended. Rather, I would say I was dumbfounded.
The reality is, I do consider myself a busy person. I do a lot of things both in and out of school - but I also often times never find myself questioning if I lack any sort of work life balance. I find that being a student is this amazing time in a person's life where they don't have to choose between "work" and "life". Their "work" can become their "life" and their "life" is the "work" that they do.
When asking me how I do all of this, my answer is nonexistent. As I don't do anything. Instead I simply love. Because when you love the life that you lead you don't feel like you're doing anything. You feel like you're living. You feel like you are free, in control, submisered in joy and in people that push you to not only your best capabilities - but to capabilities you never knew existed. Before this year I would say that I had a much harder time understanding what I did. But reflecting on my prior years I can say that I was never fulfilled. I didn't surround myself by people who brought me to places I loved. They brought me to places they deemed as soothing - but in these places I didn't find comfort. Rather isolation that was a reverse to my life's work.
This year, and I don't mean to gloat but rather reflect and share my own experience, I would say that I have immersed myself in people and in a culture of work that I love. So don't ask me how I do anything. Ask me how grateful I am for where I found myself in my life. Ask me how grateful I am that I left those who dragged me down, and found people who allowed me to become the best self that I am today. I found people that didn't say "you don't care about us" when I dreamed of a future. But instead, people that say "we can't wait to build a future together". No matter how far apart - I can say one thing - I will never forget these people. For they set me on a path that I love - something I won't ever be able to repay them for.
- Just some food for thought.